If I Can

Looking outside the window
At That Person
Wishing that I can join him
Laugh with him, talk with him, joking around with him...
Talking every little thing not everyone else do
If I can

Walking in front of his huge house
That Person's house
Wondering what he does, what he watch, what he ate
Just another little thing not everybody else caring about
Willing to visit him someday
If I can

Feeling his presence
The soul of That Person
His voice, his aura, his glance
At me

At that time, my heart keep beating
Feels like there's no air in my lungs
I can't breathe...

Oh God, I can't help this feeling
Whenever he was around me
I can't feel my own heart
Just desperately trying to cover my heartbeat like an Idiot

It felt hurt when I saw him with someone else
But what should ido?
I'm just his secret admirer
Who always being a shadow

A shadow that won't show up